Incoherently typing words on a page.

The hardest thing is not being able to talk about it. It's not mine to tell you see. I can't explain to people why I am tired, why I've been up at strange hours and in stressful situations, why my mind is otherwise occupied most of the time. It's devastating to feel helpless, to not be able to lay it all out on the table when I am most commonly an open book. 
To compensate for the lack of sleeping, there is coffee. It keeps my mind running, which is rather necessary for quick response time but it makes it so my body doesn't receive any respite. When I finally do get time to sleep, the pulses in my head keep going, conveyor belts run so rapidly along that I can't seem to catch the stop button. 
There is so much I have to do, exams, assignments, test and yet what's really more important? Those or something much less trivial? Worse still, how can I do all of these things and function semi normally without proper food? Consistent meals times are impossible and there's no one to help me, I am the helper to everyone else. I feel responsible for things that are illogical and I'm running myself ragged trying to keep up. When will the disorientation stop and sanity begin?
It will begin when someone else is ready to tell their own story, hopefully it won't be too much longer. Even if it is to continue as it currently is, I have a pretty good success rate of surviving the waves.