I'm sorry to all the lovely people who read this.

Hi everyone.

Unfortunately I'm shutting down this blog, I need to cut someone out of my life and I can't leave any connections open, maybe one day I will start blogging again but I'm just growing to hate this site because it's tainted by the fact I'm keeping this person in my life. 
So a big thank you to my readers in Russia, the UK, Germany, the USA, France, South Korea, Latvia and Malaysia, it means a lot that I can share with people all over the world and hopefully this site has helped you to release some negativity, it sure has helped me.

With huge amounts of love,
Return Love To Sender

So hold the one you can have in the sweet arms of a tune.

I've been trying to think with a clear head. It's something I used to be great at, it seems I have lost that talent somewhere along the way. I guess I keep coming back to a couple of things, you don't treat someone you love like crap. I was giving the boy who means the world to me a chance to prove that we could do this, that we could be a couple again. To find out that they just threw it back in my face when I risked so much for them is something that I just can't get passed. I would never do to him what he has done and I think it's time to find someone who will say they love me, that they want to care for me, only me and mean it.

One day, she found that little bit of something.

Every day I feel myself slipping further away from who I am, who I want to be and who I love. I feel like I need answers but I know that no good will come of that. You cannot love two people at once, he cannot love me and her, he cannot expect me to live with that. I want to believe that this is just a fight, that he is still the boy I fell in love with, still wants me and only me. From all the things that have happened, I now understand what this is all about. He wants to have the best of everything, he strings girls with low self esteem along, more than one at once, whether there is malicious intent there is not the point but the fact that it happens continually it means that any girls involved should get out. It hurts more than words to be a pawn, especially when he knows how I have been used. 
You want to know why? You KNOW why, look inside yourself, at all the things you did and don't think I know about. You have your answer right there.

Now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

You always think I won't find out, you play your little games, you use me and then you figure that everything works out for you. Don't say you love me and then say you love her behind my back, you love covering your bases, one chick didnt work out but that's okay, the next one is only a phone call away. I had a chance tonight but I told myself I love him and he loves me so I can work it out. You tricked me yet again, have you had enough yet?