I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to be in love and yet forget the past. I want to show my sun and stars that this is what I want, I just need some help and direction. I'm so afraid of making a mistake and disappointing him. He already thinks I don't trust him. I tried to explain that it's not about him, it's just how I've been for a long time and the last time I let my guard down, things were broken that are still healing.
I don't know how to please him, I don't know how to make him understand. I had hoped that it would be simple, clearly a naive assumption but yet, I really believed it was true. This relationship is not alike anything else I've been a part of. I know this boy is loyal, he cares, he knows what he's doing and he has morals. I don't know how to deal with such qualities in a boyfriend. I need to stop comparisons. My sun and stars is one of a kind. I need to believe in that if nothing else.
