It's time

So I'm thinking it's been long enough for me to put this blog back online. It's nearly been a year and so much has changed in that time, I'm studying what I love, I'm healthier, I have a boy who I love to pieces and I'm making progress. I regret having to put this blog on private anyway, this is MY outlet, I shouldn't have to put what I love on hold because of someone else. 
So my writing isn't going splendidly. I haven't had a reason to write but I've been thinking that maybe going back online would give me some inspiration again.

The last something that meant anything.

They shouldn't have to give you a reason to stay, you should know. I don't feel like he would fight to keep me and he shouldn't have to fight to keep me. I should want to stay, most definitely with no doubts in my mind. It's not that I want to leave. It's that I don't feel the need to stay. My life carries on like normal when I don't see him. I don't miss talking to him throughout the day, I don't miss anything really. It's comfortable. Comfortable shouldn't be a bad thing. I need to push for something, whether it's uni or whether it's music or whether it is him, I need something.