No-one can find the rewind button now, so cradle your head in your hands.

I keep taunting myself with my two biggest mistakes, replaying them like they are the only things that I have done with my life. The thing is, if I see either of them again I won't be in control of myself for entirely different reasons. I freeze with one, I lose all sense of self, the fiery and defiant girl that I am and I become nothing. The other makes my whole self shiver and quake, but not in fear, in an illusion of faith that he loved me as much as I loved him. The sad thing is that with the more time that goes by, the more I see the similarities between them. Their talents are the same, they both spoke their minds far more than they should have, they both made me feel so small, so powerless, they both made me disappear.