If I wanna be someone equally free there are things I must unlearn.

I was supposed to go out tonight. I was supposed to go and meet people and party. Instead I stayed home cooking. Whether that was a good choice or not I do not know. I stayed home, by myself, to cook. It's been a while since I cooked, probably the first time since he left. Alcohol and cooking all alone, not one of my best ideas. Sure, it makes everything taste better, makes me think my ideas are genius, the outcome is not so great though. I've called everyone I talk to just so I don't call a specific number. A couple of numbers really. The boy I met, the boy I used to be with and the boy who is nearby. I never make the best decisions when I'm alone but I rather the decisions I make alone than the decisions I make with a boy.