All I needed was a landline.

I haven't been this scared in a while. He can't hurt me, he can't touch me but it still feels like he is in control. I'm scared that I can't be with someone who is right for me, that I can't be functional. What if I always hide behind what hurt me, just in case of the slightest chance that they hurt me too? They say that you experience fear and mastery. I am scared to experience either. I don't want him to rule my life again, to be stuck in an endless loop of being lost. I don't want to hide like I used to, I want to live and be happy, I want to love someone, I want to be innocent again.