How much will I find?

It's been too long since the last time I prayed. I haven't been inside a Church for about a year and a half because I find it hard to face the concept that God is listening and willing to help us change. I don't know what to believe, I don't know what to pray for, I don't know how to reach out. I used to believe you went to a place of worship because it was expected. 
 My family never pushed faith onto us, we went to Church every Sunday, we prayed and were an active part of the service but I never remember taking it home with us, it was like there was a special place for that sort of thing. We were given the option of following our faith or not. The problem with that is when the teenage years hit, most of us abandon faith, decide to be rebellious even if there is nothing against which to rebel. 
I left the Church, of course there were a few more complicated circumstances which helped the decision, but now, I'm not sure what to do, what to pray for, what to believe. I guess I'm looking for direction, for something to work for, I just can't find it, but it's not faith if you use your eyes right?