Growing without getting taller.

When I was a little girl, the last thing on my mind was what my husband would look like, I was more worried about how many pets I would have, 6 dogs by the way, or what I would be. I never really thought about my dependance on a guy with a Y chromosone.

The only boy I remember being around as a kid was John. He wasn't related to me, but I always knew he was my equivalent to a cousin. I remember the competitiveness, how I was always the weak one. But then I got bigger, at least for a little while. Now he towers above me. That's one thing that always upset me. Why are boys allowed to be so much TALLER?

I surround myself with feminism. Ask anyone I went to high school with, they will tell you I was never quiet about those opinions. But I admit, that was protection, if you yell at people from the get-go they wont challange you nine times out of ten. Of course when I was put in a situation when a guy really pushed me, I quit the class. Or change schools. Take your pick.

I wonder how it will affect me later. What if I have a co-worker who I disagree with? What if I scream and fight with any male I meet? Thats not the way I want to be. But for now, I can deal. For now, I'm learning.