Counting my foot steps, praying the floor won't fall through.

Don't you think I was too young to be messed with? Everything that he did back then affects me now. Every word he said, every one of those disgusting looks has changed me, I am no longer that innocent little girl who believed the best in people. It means that it will take me years to even have a semi functional relationship. I don't want to kiss anyone because of him, I don't want anyone to stand behind me or play with my hair because of him. The thing that I have to always remember is that it was not my fault that he did this, it was his decision and probably nothing I did would have affected the outcome. It is not your fault if they decide that you are the one they want to torment, I guess we're just unlucky, but that doesn't mean we have to stay that way. I will pick myself up and I will change things, I won't meekly sit down and have everyone else make my decisions for me again, I am stronger now, I am stronger than I expected I would ever become so I guess in someways I owe that to him but I will NEVER say thank you. He has my fear but not my fate.