I'll bring your words along with me, maybe one day they will mean something.

Today has been a day of panic, losing something close to me, having to touch ferrets and discovering things that were better left unknown. Admittedly the second doesn't sound like it fits but I swear to God they give me the creeps.
There are somethings better left in the dark, never to be discovered because they are just no good for people. There's something in your mind that tells you to stop looking, to turn back but of course most of us don't listen. I am the first to admit that I feel the need to know everything, I need to understand why things happen and what an appropriate response is. Sadly some things do not have an appropriate response. Some things hit you so hard that you have no response at all. 

I wish that I could compile my experiences, the things that I did badly, the things that were successful so that other people like me would know what to avoid, but there are some decisions that cannot be made for us, we have no right to force changes on another person just because we think we know what's best, we might, but that isn't the point. No one could help me deal with my issues, no one can still, but they can help me through them, just like I can help other people, I can't tell them to cut ties or to get rid of something that is weighing them down, that is their decision entirely, but I can help them to pick up the pieces and help them to get through the pain and to the next day.

It sounds weird but anyone who has been through something similar will understand that just getting through 30 seconds of conversation without crying or shutting people out is an achievement, walking into a restaurant and not having to sit with your back to the wall is a big step forward. It's the little things, being able to go for a walk by yourself, being able to sit in a room with other people and be absolutely calm, these are the things that most people take for granted. These are the things that make us feel like we belong and these are the things we aspire to.