I know there's nothing I can say to change that part.

I feel that there is something wrong, whether because we were expecting different things or they were just words. When there are two people it makes things more difficult, trying to please them but trying to keep yourself intact is an atrocious task and the weight of it is exceptional.
The things that scares me is that you can't take some things back, you can't undo some mistakes, you can't change actions.