Let's face it, this was never what you wanted.

I've been in a lot of pain recently, so today, being forced by my family, I went and got some help. Help sucks, it hurts like hell, why would anyone want to get help if all consists of is more pain? I taught myself the deal with most physical pains, it makes you a stronger person, mental pain is much worse in my opinion, more destructive and corrosive than any broken bone. I've been so exhausted recently, I guess I'm always tired but I need so much more energy than I have. I love my job, I love my friends and I love playing music. I don't want to have to choose but I know which one goes if push comes to shove.