She was waiting for him, she would never admit it but she was. She was waiting for that person, the one to make her life complete. She wanted to believe that she could make it on her own, that she could have everything and not need anyone to be there to hold her or make her feel safe, after all we should be self sufficient. She wanted to be completely solitary but that was then.
She grew reliant on him, the one thing she swore she would never be. She wanted to know what he was doing, who he was with and if he even missed her. She knew the road she was heading down, the bit where he wasn't part of her life, she was just a miniscule section of his and that without him she wasn't important. Dependence is something that should be avoided at all costs. Once the ball starts rolling there's not much you can do to stop it.
It was no suprise that he left her. She wasn't what he wanted anymore. She couldn't understand how she got from one stage of her life where she was respected, opinionated and held in high esteem to this blubbering needy mess that was all alone. That wasn't what she wanted. The thing is that to get back is twice as hard as the last time, so we stay and we fight, but what are we fighting for? Most people would say you are fighting to regain your pecial someone. But really, it's a fight for yourself. Who are you going to let win?
No comments:
Post a Comment
Note: only a member of this blog may post a comment.