One day, she found that little bit of something.

Every day I feel myself slipping further away from who I am, who I want to be and who I love. I feel like I need answers but I know that no good will come of that. You cannot love two people at once, he cannot love me and her, he cannot expect me to live with that. I want to believe that this is just a fight, that he is still the boy I fell in love with, still wants me and only me. From all the things that have happened, I now understand what this is all about. He wants to have the best of everything, he strings girls with low self esteem along, more than one at once, whether there is malicious intent there is not the point but the fact that it happens continually it means that any girls involved should get out. It hurts more than words to be a pawn, especially when he knows how I have been used. 
You want to know why? You KNOW why, look inside yourself, at all the things you did and don't think I know about. You have your answer right there.