Loving you was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street.

I've titled another post with this song. I really needed to make this one too before I start things over with this guy. SO, it was a tumultuous journey, where I think I hated myself as much as I hated him, there was always something that drove me back, an unanswered question, a lingering feeling, a photo. Do you have Pokemon named after her now? Does her dad feel better about you than my dad did? Do you talk to her the way you talked to me in front of him? Do you see your daughter in her eyes now? Did you really think I wouldn't find out how long it was you wanted her for? I feel like crumbling when I think about you, I'm not sure if it's because I lost you or because I lost myself. I found a great Lion King photo on 9gag and I found it funny, whether because that isn't me or because that is so you, I don't know. Sometimes feel like our whole relationship was that amazing goodbye kiss, it wasn't our last but it was spectacular. Sometimes I feel like our whole relationship was me sitting in my room crying. Now, it's nothing. It's okay, it led me to right where I needed to be, it led me to someone who is a bit more experienced and who can understand that I'm not there yet and that I have boundaries and doesn't believe you need to push them every two minutes. Even if things don't work out with him, at least I'm on the right track now, I'm sorry it didn't work with you.