You said this hill looks far too steep.

I constantly struggle with my perception of right and wrong. I believe that you should help everybody, even if it is to your own detriment, I believe that you should do it, you shouldn't say they need help and wait for someone else to pick up the slack. The people who know me personally understand that I feel this way, they say that I should value my own health as well, I'm starting to understand what they mean. I'm so close to the edge because someone I love is slipping and I have to let them live their own life. I can't sleep because I'm worried, they keep telling me to let go because I'm about to go down with the sinking ship and if there is a survivor it won't be me. 
I don't blame you, you did what was best for you. You needed her there to calm you down, you needed those things tonight to make you feel better. You are doing what you need to do, I understand that. 
That's why I have to do what is best for me.